I have made yet another mistake. This time, it was a big one, and I lost one of my dearest friends because of it.
My mother says I am stubborn; I prefer the term “independent”. Whatever term you prefer, I have always done things my way. I can remember as a child doing chores my way and getting in trouble for it. You would think I have learned from past mistakes, but I haven’t.
I will not go into detail, but I did something recently that hurt a friend. Let the record shot that I did not intend to hurt this person. While I wish I could take back what I did, unfortunately, I can’t. This was a case of me not thinking before I did something, plain and simple.
I have had the chance the past few days to think about my life and the direction it is headed. I have had the chance to think about past comments on my self-esteem, behavior, etc. I did not like what I saw. Then it hit me like an anvil: I can not be angry anymore. I am angry about my job situation, I am somewhat jealous about what others have, and I am angry about money. I can not control any of this. I need to let go.
With this new-found knowledge, I am working on me. My self-esteem is slowly on the rise. I am working on being happier. I definitely have learned from this mistake. Maybe this time I will learn.